Archive for June, 2009
Monday, June 29th, 2009
Paralyzed
I’ve had a really bad week. Other than living on the streets, as a teen for ten days, this has been the worst week I’ve had in my life.
I’m stuck. I feel emotionally, dreadfully, paralyzed. I can’t go back now to the way I was a few weeks ago. The trauma I’ve kept under the [...]
2 Comments » - Posted in Personal by jen
Friday, June 19th, 2009
Afraid Of Shadows
I heard a song on the radio the other day and this lyric stuck out to me, “like a child, I’m afraid of the dark.” That was a mind-blowing statement to me. I wasn’t able to focus on the rest of the song and figure out who was singing or what else she was singing [...]
3 Comments » - Posted in Hope, Personal by jen
Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
Stay Awhile
I couldn’t fall asleep until I wrote this out tonight:
Then He came to me
Beyond dreams in restless sleep
With a voice, booming, echoing out to sea
“Loved, you are”
He spoke through me
Every pore, nerve, sensory
Breathing in these words
And storing them
For days when life becomes a breaking load
When time passes by, without giving joy a chance to stay [...]
2 Comments » - Posted in Writing by jen
Sunday, June 7th, 2009
Happy Birthday, Cali!
Jase and I thought we were done having children after Zoe was born in 2003. We had our boy and we had our girl and were very content with the joy they brought us. It’s extremely difficult to just put a finalization on having children. We have a lot of friends that have endured miscarriages [...]